PROFILE.
susanna
Monday, March 29, 2004
wat is wrong wif me..?i'm neglectin everythin ard me..me frens..my studies..my pets..my family..my whole life now jus revloves ard u..u're e onli one tt i'm crin over..all e pain tats in heart yet not let out..nobody wants to listen to a broken heart's story..i'm even torturin myslf..wat am i thinkin?! wantin to fall sick..whackin myslf..jus to out tat it really hurts..but not as much as how my heart is thorn into a million pieces..puttin up a false frontat sch everyday..pretendin to enjoy myslf when actually i dun..all e fake laughters..totally not me. was e free n ez kind..i wan tat back..haiz..at hme..tryin to be tat gd, responsible daughter who is expected to get gd grades. its onli at nite when i can let it all out..hidin under e covers sobbin to myslf..thinkin of wat i hav become..but no one noes. i am all alone in my corner..i hate myslf. all e slpless nites are wearin me out..will i break dwn one day? will anyone care? will anyone even notice? i doubt so..cos they wun noe. i wun let dem. they'll jus noe me for who i'm imposin. e impression of me to everyone is diff. no one noes e real me..onli u..but guess its all gone now.
will tis be prolonged..? i duno..i wasnt liddat before..nvr was..can i be lyk before again..? no.
i'm trapped..can someone pls lead me out of tis dark hole..? i'm lonely dwn here..
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11:25 PM