PROFILE.
susanna
Monday, March 29, 2004
i'm a loser. i hate myslf. wat am i doin? how can i do tis to u? am i tat insensitive? i've caused so u so much pain..hurt u over and over again..waitin there for me without any conditions..jus a reply frm me..made u feel lyk i dun care..made u feel lyk a fool..guess u're already sick n tired of my treatin u tis way..i hav no way of redeemin myslf anymore..guess tat was e last straw..i've crossed e line..way too much..haix..wat can i do change things to wat it was..?='(
is tis it? i've let u dwn..disappoint u..i've done too many things tat hurt u onli..cant even make u smile e way ur frens does..all i do is cause unhappiness..will things be better if i had left instead..?
why is my life so messed up? why?! did i do smth wrong to deserve all tis? wud it be better if i jus end it all? haix..why am i even thinkin of tat?! i've said to myslf tat i wudnt stress myslf up..but why am i lettin it happen..?? why?? *sob* so many qns in my mind..so many train of tots..so many things i wanna say..yet no guts to speak it up..i cant even be a gd fren..not to say a gd gf..u've been more than i've asked for..yet i'm doin tis to u..u dun deserve tis shit frm me aft all u hav done for me..i no longer deserve ur care..='(
i'm useless..hurtin sumone i love so much..i duno wat to do..everythin i do seem so wrong..everythin abt me make no sense anymore..i've wasted so much of ur time..causin all e unhappiness still..=( ive been so unfair to u..doin nth for u..yet u still say u love me so..u're jus too gd to me..too gd for me..no one ever was..u tried so much yet i didnt respond..couldnt think on ur behlf..i gd for nth..pure and simple.
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10:02 PM